Who Am I?

“And David said unto Saul, Who am I? and what is my life, or my father's family in Israel, that I should be son in law to the king?” -1 Samuel 18:18

        The scripture tells us that whosoever will be exalted shall be abased and he that humbleth himself shall be exalted.  As a good friend of mine once said: “Humility is water on the clay.”  That humility is what keeps us malleable.  It allows us to be tender and makes it so God can work with us and ultimately through us.  

“Who am I?”  This question that David proposed to king Saul has been going over and over in mind of late. The mighty king Saul had given his heart over to pride and rebellion.  Outwardly he was keeping up appearances of righteousness, but inwardly he was rotten.  In his jealousy for David, Saul thought it wise to give his daughters to him in a hope to ensnare him.  This plot was lost on David.  David had no intention of the throne, no thirst for power or longing to usurp.  David simply was going about his business serving God and by extension serving mankind.  The success of David caused king Saul to despise him.  Here in this exchange the state of Saul’s heart was manifested as was the state of David’s.  Saul is so intent on destruction that he would use his own daughter to accomplish his means.  The other so humble that he not only cannot see the plot but can hardly believe that he would be given this opportunity.  “Who am I?  What is my family in Israel?”  As if to say, why me?  The world is in a constant state of power struggle.  In business, in politics, in schools, in families, and even in churches.  We are like ants, fighting over our speck of dirt, when the Creator of all things is looking down and saying, “humble yourself and I will give you so much more.”  Instead of spending our last days promoting ourselves (which we have ample opportunity to), how much more should we be promoting Him?  Jesus Christ, the one who lived and died on a cruel cross, the instrument of evil that brought so much good.  But and if one could be persuaded to lay aside their will and take up Jesus Christ’s, taking on the same humility as David.  The spirit of “Who am I?”  They would then be exalted to be a child of God.

It is mighty thing to be a child of God.  Those that have been redeemed know that when you are lost in sin you are a child of the devil and the works of your father the devil you did.  However, when you humble yourself and say, “Who am I?”  When you repent to God for Christ sake; he will forgive your sins, and when you die to yourself, offering up that “living sacrifice” to God, he will anoint you with the Holy Spirit.  Thereby making you a child of God and keeping you from sin as you keep yourself in the Holy Spirit.  Who am I?  Who am I? That God would give such a gracious gift.